I just sent my daughter a text which read in part "fuck a duck" -- and I have to think how things have changed as the years go by. My mother would have had a heart attack, foamed at the mouth, and laid flat out before she would ever use the word "fuck". She actually used to spell "crap" - and then apologize. How times have changed!!
I watch my children raise their children and am amazed -- how much they do together with their children - the places they go, the things they see, the experiences they have -- far more than I ever did with my children. And definitely more than mine did with me. Some difference, of course, is the money -- they are far better off at a younger age than I was -- but even the free things are outstanding.
By the way, I am encouraging my grandchildren to have teen age sex (when they get there) so that possibly I can get Great Grandchildren somewhat sooner than later -- since I am somewhat older as a grandmother -- and I wish to see my Greats!
Bye for now.
A chronicle of life as one moves along the age time line...not always happily. But always humoressly!
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Thursday, August 23, 2012
There has to be somewhere where my heart can bleed out -- where I can express all the pain and the lonliness now that GiGi McGillacutty Stuart has been put down. She was my best friend -- home with me for the last 12 years -- and I put her down. I do not understand death. I do not understand why she (and they) had to leave me. I totally don't understand. Life should go on. Why must it stop? My heart is not happy.
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
And then you have....
Tomorrow I put GiGi down. She is the last of my caretaking responsibilities. For 33 1/2 years, I have cared for children, parents, couple of dogs and a cat. Now they have, in effect, left me. Some through death -- some from moving away physically -- and sometimes mentally -- Didn't think of myself as "caretaker" -- never ever considered that in defining me. But now that GiGi is leaving me (I'm putting her down - but note that "she is leaving me"), I have to ask -- "what's left?". It brings up so many questions -- Who am I now? Who was I then? Why can't I be that now? What is life about? What will the next 25 years be about? No more caretaking leaves me with nothing important to do -- no one depending on me.
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